Err who am I again?

Let's take a look back at what I have done this past year. In the beginning, I was living up life the secular way... you know the kind that involves a lot of alcohol consumption and things of that nature. Then, it broke down into a completely different summer.... one that many never experience. My passion from the summer seeped into my college fall life for quite some time. Now, my life is almost back to where it was a year ago. What happened?

You see, I lost that passion. Sure I go through the motions of being a "good" Christian, but honestly what am I doing that's real? Well for one example, my excuse making definitely is real. I choose to make excuses for things all the time. I tend to stay awake really late on a Monday night so that by the time small group comes along on Tuesday I am so tired that I fall asleep. What about Thursdays? There's plenty going on around here. I can go eat dinner with my small group up at Tech, I can watch a live feed of TheWell, I can do my homework so I can actually hang out with fellow Christians on Sundays...

But am I doing any of these? Nope, not even remotely close. I spend the day inside playing video games, and not doing anything Christian. It's even gotten to the point where my 3-4 online sermons I watched on a Sunday don't factor into a list of activities.

I used to tell everyone I knew about my love for Jesus and God. Time and time again it got bashed down to the point where I don't even really mention it in a conversation. Now that's passion right?!? Nope, not even remotely close. I can tell there is still a small smoldering ember in my soul, but like the R.E.M song I am losing my religion....

My life needs a revitalization... it needs a renewed bonfire of awesome God inspired passion? But where do I and others like me start. Well it starts at home; stop making excuses, they are just a ploy used to peel you away from God by the Evil One. I don't care what you used to do before we started slipping, but whatever is causing you to slip needs to be taken out of our lives. Go back to the pureness of becoming a believer. Remember what it used to feel like, the excitement and chills that went through your body. The ones you got when you prayed, or the ones you got when you shared the Gospel. By doing these little sincere things, your fire will once again become a bonfire!

Just some food for thoughts

Ricky