Perfection or lack of

Recently I have been thinking a lot. These things have come down hard upon me because of the various things I do. During our bible study Tuesday we came up with a conclusion that you can tell who are true followers of Christ. They are the ones that don't just say things, but they take it to a new level. They actually DO the things to show love to their brothers and sisters aka everyone in the world.

I have been reflecting a lot lately about my own stance. I mean I do say a bunch of things to people, but how often am I doing it. How often am I going up to random people and saying "Hey you know what? Jesus loves you!" Well I can honestly say that hasn't happened at all when I have been by myself. It's only happened when I am around other Christians. I think its half trying to show off how good of a person I am, and half that they help give courage and encouragement.

I also have been considering other things as well. Like today I claimed that I could honestly be either a mentee or a mentor within my walk as a Christian. But I just came to realize this: How can I help others with their walk if I struggle with my own? How can I tell others how they should be doing things, when often times I don't do them? How can I expect others to express their thoughts, feelings, and actions when I myself rarely do them?

I am far from perfect. I am far from being decent, I am far from being average. I am below mediocre even. I was talking to my brother today trying to make sure his own intentions for things were right. Well honestly I have no reason to judge his actions, because I do the same things and often times far worse. He admits what he is doing half the time. I take these secrets only to myself. God knows them still because he's El Shaddai and nothing can be hidden from Him.

Its just some things I have been thinking of lately...

God Bless
Ricky